Sunday, January 2, 2011

New Year's Resolutions

I've never really done any. I love them, in theory. They are an excellent dream - as if a new calendar is in actuality a clean slate, when you are completely free to start anew and redeem yourself. But it's really just another day. But, this past year, I haven't had any complaints. In some ways, it was an uneventful year. I mean, I went and graduated from Aveda, got my license to practice in North Carolina, moved, and now enrolling into Peace College. But, nothing terribly catastrophic happened to us. And nothing all that amazing happened either. don't get me wrong, I am as grateful as the days are long. I know how blessed we are, and I am well aware how others do not nearly have it as 'good' a us. But, still, it makes me wonder, how is this year going to go? In my life, I've noticed a pattern. One off, one on. One summer is great, the next is horrible. And so forth and so forth. So, if you don't get it, it's like this:
2007- My father died. BAD YEAR.
2008 - Got engaged, got married. GOOD YEAR.
2009 - Moved to Raleigh. But, Van also lost his job. GOOD year? Or BAD year?
2010 - Aveda, moved into bigger house, made more friends. GOOD YEAR.
Which means, 2011, is going to be a bad, bad year. I can feel it. I know that's horrible, the pessimism, but I can feel it in my bones. And my bones, or my intuition - is never, ever wrong. I'm going to Aveda, I'm in the process of losing A LOT of weight and generally trying to be a healthier individual. It's the first time in my life I am losing weight the healthy way, and so far I love it and hate it. but, Van's contract is also almost up, which means at any point, he could be out of a job. And this new, bigger house is really expensive, so in turn, we don't have a lot of money saved up to fall back on if that should happen. Or I should say, when that should happen, because it is going to. I honest to God hate this house, I really do. The whole situation sounded great on paper, but that is before people decided to screw us over. But they did, and this is where we are. :(
Anyways, resolutions. In order to try and persuade the Fates to allow this year to not be a complete disaster, I've decided to make some resolutions. So here they go:
1. I am going to finish my weight loss by July 24, 2011. I was at 173. I am now at 158. I aim to be 135.
2. I am going to make great grades, and try my best in math.
3. I want to get a job I love. And keep it for the whole year.
4. Try and be nicer to people.
5. Not put up with people's bullshit either. i know a lot of people think I don't already, but it's not true. I let a lot of shit slide. Not anymore.
6. Try and spend more time with friends.
7. Really have a good Christmas.
8. Save $2000 for my birthday trip, and give Van a wonderful birthday.
I think that's it. Take it or leave it.

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